Less of me

I don't do very well at this whole "dying to self" thing. In fact, I may even be utterly crap at it. The more tired I am, the crapper at it I get.

Which I think is the reason why I have to re-learn this so often.

I'm full of envy, pride and some very selfish desires. Worse still, I'm a control freak. I need to have things go my way. I can always tell when I'm edging towards the "my way or the highway" attitude. I'm more stresses, things affect me more and I get angry and bitter when things don't go my way.

Unfortunately, I don't always recognize the trigger symptoms until it's too late.

The truth is, it's so much better to be submitted. You don't have to worry so much because you trust that everything is in hands much larger than yours. It also makes decision making a much pleasenter experience. I think we should all try it.

Donald Miller: Million Miles Tour

I don't know how many of you have heard of Donald Miller. Pretty much, if you haven't, you may have been hiding under a rock. And you need to read Blue Like Jazz now.

Anyway, Donald Miller is awesome. He's one of those incredibly authentic writers who say stuff and you find yourself thinking "Wow, that is so true..."

AND...he's offering you a free download of a chapter of his latest (audio)book A Million Miles.

The link is a little off centre (who says I need to change my layout??) But it's the yellow-y bit down the bottom. Click and voila - free audiobook chapter! Yay!

Money, money, money

Money is such a necessary evil. Often I think that my life would be much better if money didn't exist and everyone gave & recieved freely in a perfectly ideal world.

I can hear you scoffing from here. You've got to admit it would be nice!!!

The inspiration behind this is simply the fact that I find myself thinking about money A LOT lately. I guess that's what comes of having a mortgage, building a house & paying rent all at the same time. Here's where I've got to confess to my lack of faith.

I know God can and will provide. And, when I look at this situation honestly I can see that we haven't been without. AND I've heard the stories of people who have had way worse debt and they're still around to tell the tale. But it's kinda scary.

Here's how I see it: For me, God providing is great in an abstract way. When it gets down to the nitty gritty of it all then I get worried. I get worried because it's not really "abstract" any more...it's real and it's my life and I know there are people out there who get random donations posted in their mail but there's a recession out there and it's bigger than God...

Or is it?

I don't want my faith to be the kind that constantly needs to be affirmed. And deep down I know that the God who healed my friend's daughter's sight (an awesome story by the way) is so much bigger than anything else that's going on. But I've never been here before and that's a little scary.

I guess we all need reassurance sometimes.